Time to move on

I really want to move. I have never hated this state, until now. I guess I don't really hate the state as much as I hate the weather.
It is snowing again, floods are still happening and pending.

We had to move all of our stuff from the basement to the main floor.
The city has done an absolutely shitty job of keeping the roads clean this winter - absolutely pathetic.

We moved back here for 1 reason - our family. My parents and A's parents all live here.
I have a bonus in the fact that I love Western and Southwestern ND - to hike, hunt, driving the gravel roads for literally hundreds of miles or just sitting on the side of a hill taking in the rolling plains on a warm September or October afternoon. I love that.

BUT, it is getting to the point that none of this seems worth staying in this god foresaken land. I constantly ask myself why anyone willingly lives here?

1 more winter like this and I'm seriously going to consider moving - Hello Colorado.

Here is the forecast for the months of November through March for ND.

Lets blog about the weather

Today, in this wonderful state we have/had warnings for:
Flood, hail, tornado, blizzard, sleet.

Somebody let me know if they see a man riding upon a white horse in the midst of all this... :)

Linton, is currently flooding and most of the town is only accesible by boat.
Fox Island is under a voluntary evacuation due to the rapid rising of the Missouri R.
Fargo is about to be flooded as well, as expected.

Last I heard we are scheduled for up to a foot of snow over the next 24 hours or so. I hope it doesn't happen, but it is cold enough right now for snow.

Usually by this time of the year I'm done asking myself why I live here.

Random

I remember when I first met Andrea. Odd circumstances, one more confirmation for me of fate. Anyway, I particularily remember the first weeks, months and into the first year. Her working at BBB me working these ridiculous late hours at Lewis trucking with Onree and Christ. I would go see her on every one of her breaks, eating dinner or just holding hands and talking.

If she wasn't working she was at school. I would go and sit and read while she was spending endless hours in the photolab, printing her photos. Just wanting to be where she was as close as possible.
I couldn't spend enough time with her. Everything was new and exciting.

That seems so long ago. My memories of that time and most of my time in Fargo seem like a blur or like bits from a movie. I can still feel those feelings of excitement and joy when I think about those times.

Now of course things are different. We have evolved in our relationship. Still love each other very much, but as expected things are different.

Anyway, the reason for all this randomness is that I heard a song just a little bit ago that reminded me of all those things. Andrea had bought a CD a few months after we met that had a song on it that she said made her think of us. It's crazy when I hear this song and haven't heard it for a while. It actually chokes me up a little bit, becuase it reminds me of how much I love/loved her at that time. I have never loved like that and at that time nothing had even come close. I still do love her on that level - just to clarify.

Now of course we have McKenzie and she brings so much love and joy to my life it is impossible to describe. My love for her is on a similar level, but different of course and I feel very lucky.

I always remember that song and a few others when I think of us at that time. All were songs on the radio at that time that she really seemed to like and we would seem to hear a lot.

Finally, here is the song and it is the first time I have ever seen the video.

One Thing.

God this song is powerful.

And the list got shorter

I was going to only leave this post with the title, but decided to leave an explaination... for myself I guess. As most blog posts are in my opinion.

Anyway, I'm pretty much done here with blogging... for the most part.

Tonight I realised why I originally started this thing and why I continued with it for so long. I realised that it doesn't really matter.

I will say it was fun, served it's purpose for the time. But with the list getting shorter and time becoming more precious, the posts are going to become much less frequent.

Perhaps this has spawned from a serious frustration right now of wasted time on the net, even more or less precisely it is of wasted time concerning several other aspects of the past blending in and out of the current, but I do not care to get into it beyond that.

The point is that I have found new value in several aspects of my life to the point that I simply don't want to invest my time into things that I can see are a waste of time.

Anyway, my guess is that future blogs will be even less meaningful to most everyone, but me. I will probably only randomly use it to vent something of anger or my personal enjoyment which most don't really care about anyway.

A statement that I really enjoyed the first time I saw it and still do which if you read as it is and then after that change a few words to blogs and writing blog posts will pretty much tell half of my story and like I said the other half I don't care to get into.

"I stayed up late last night, slogging through endless websites. I think I was looking for meaning online, which is about the most ridiculous endeavor I can imagine. I feel a little more sane this morning."

To my wife and daughter.

The best part of my day every day is coming home from work to see McKenzie's big smile and then hearing her say "Dadieee" and then getting a kiss from her and Andrea.



You're a falling star, You're the get away car.
You're the line in the sand when I go too far.
You're the swimming pool, on an August day.
And you're the perfect thing to say.

And you play it coy, but it's kinda cute.
Ah, When you smile at me you know exactly what you do.
Baby don't pretend, that you don't know it's true.
Cause you can see it when I look at you.

[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, You make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

You're a carousel, you're a wishing well,
And you light me up, when you ring my bell.
You're a mystery, you're from outer space,
You're every minute of my everyday.

And I can't believe, uh that I'm your man,
And I get to kiss you baby just because I can.
Whatever comes our way, ah we'll see it through,
And you know that's what our love can do.

[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, You make me sing
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.
So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La
So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La

[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, You make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.
You're every song, and I sing along.
'Cause you're my everything.
Yeah, yeah

So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La
So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La, La, La, La, La

I am a ship out on the sea

The Good be Tanyas song I really like - cover. I couldn't find the original.